The lists slant past the lined paper, the words scribbled as if I’m afraid I’ll forget the item before I have a chance to finish writing the word. Usually, while they look frantic and disorganized, they give me temporary peace. I know they are now in a place where they can’t be forgotten, instead of in my tired brain.
But recently, I used my best handwriting to create a list that has remained in my life day after day—in a good way.
No longer a “to do” list, it’s a “to be” list. I’ve needed it in a time of my life when the other lists keep growing, my life feeling too overwhelmed with each day’s tasks that may or may not actually get done.
Things like “loved, compassionate, available, patient, wise, joyful, grateful” became my daily list.
Though I sometimes wish I could simply throw away those messy “to do” lists, I can filter them through my other list. Have some paperwork to do? Do it with patience.
Need to cook a meal for a guest, or just my family? Boil, bake, slice with compassion.
Need to answer some email, but my kids are hanging onto my arm? Leave the email on the list and be available to play with the kids.
Feeling like I’ll never get it all done, never get it done right, and never be more than a list of mundane tasks? Stop doing and rest in the fact that I’m loved.
My “to be” list focused me less on tasks, more on people. Less on the temporary, more on things that last. Less on scribbles on paper, more on yearnings from my heart.
It’s a list that both inspires me and humbles me.
Will you join me in being more than the list of things we do, and more of the hope of what He could give us?